How can I attend an appointment if the appointment was before I knew about it? Seriously… How? 

You may remember a few posts back I moaned about a thing I went to where they expected me to go to a group session, well, about a week ago I received a bunch of appointment letters, they expect me to go to about 10 appointments in the next 2 months, yeah, that’s not going to happen. Also, I received another letter yesterday, the date it was posted was the 11th but the appointment was for the 10th (and yes, I checked the right month etc).

And yet they blame me for not attending….

People really do confuse me,

On a slightly more upbeat note, I’m going away for a week next month, unsure how I’ll handle that but if it will get me in the sun and away from those damned letters then I’ll give it my best shot. It’s been 9 years since I have left the UK so I am genuinely looking  forward to getting away for a bit of R&R, plus most school’s will be open again by then so I won’t be surrounded by screaming children and large groups of people. Only going to Spain but still, get’s me away for a bit doesn’t it? And after 9 years I’m not really picky. 

Another plus side, ‘Dominion’ will be finished before I leave so I won’t be sitting around wondering what I’ve missed so that’s good! (Poor Michael!!).

Anyway, just another quick update as I haven’t done so as much as I would like. 

Hope to have something more interesting soon.

Please bare with me! 



“Suppose you were an idiot, and suppose you were a member of Congress; but I repeat myself.” – Mark Twain


People are idiots.

It’s true! Let me explain.

I was going to explain in detail but that would take far to long. Let’s put it this way, I went for an appointment this morning and the woman I seen completely disregarded my file and the state I was in (I was pale, shaking and stuttering like a fool in a crowded open plan office). Apparently she is going to help me look for a job (which I am not allowed to do for the next 2 years at least) and then telling me not to worry as I will only be there about once a week and I will be part of a group. How is that not worrying for me? Does she even know what social anxiety is?

Oh, and as I am how I am, I can’t actually go out alone as I have anxiety attacks so I only leave if my mother comes with me (which my file states) yet she expects me to go there alone every week to sit with strangers and talk about what I’m doing to look for work.

Am I taking this out of proportion or is my stress justified?

Is it any wonder why I don’t like people?


Always read something that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it. ” –  P. J. O’Rourke