I am so sorry!

I know I said I would try to update this regularly but well… as you can see that did not work out as intended. To be fair, the e-mail account and username I used for this completely went out of my mind and it has taken me about 2 hours of sitting here typing away and getting a headache to get back in.

Anyway, hopefully now that I’m back in I can actually start updating.

I’m in a good mood today which makes a change, although I have not slept in roughly 28 hours. I finally found an on-line course for myself! It’s only a Higher National Certificate (HNC) but I figured it would be a good way to slowly get back into it right? It’s completely on-line too which makes me all the more comfortable. No going outside or sitting in a small room with those people things.

If you have not guessed from my previous paragraph my anxiety has not went anywhere unfortunately. The docs have increased my medication now (I’m currently on Sertraline, for now) but still nothing.

Don’t get me wrong, I have managed to go outside, I actually managed to get myself down to England for a family wedding! I won’t even start on how messed up I was after but I held myself together as well as I could. Tried not too show how much I was being effected by the large crowds so I didn’t worry anyone or spoil the day. I don’t actually think I have left my home since I got back actually and that was at the beginning of June.


Oh! I am unsure if this will actually be interesting to anyone but I finally got The Sims 4! I am being slowly tempted to learn Simmish (Is that what it’s called? The language used (made up) in the game?). I’m not entirely sure what too make of it yet, it’s got some neat things but it will take me a while to get used to it I guess.

Right then, I am going to have a look for links/references etc so hopefully there will be something of value up during today.

Wish me luck!


“Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I’m not sure about the former.” –  Albert Einstein 



Hello all!

Thank you for checking this out. I suppose I should start by introducing myself, I’m Rose. I’m afraid it is not actually my name but as I hope you will soon see, there is a reason for this so please bear with me.

I am an early – mid twenties female human being that currently lives in Scotland, I was born in England, but as I have said, I unfortunately do not live there now. I was a college student studying Psychology, Sociology, Criminology & English Lit etc but unfortunately due to the health issues, I had to leave during my third year.

I wanted to start this blog to help people understand issues , thoughts and worries of people in my situation. I have been a long sufferer of insomnia, severe depression and have also been diagnosed with social anxiety disorder.

My aim for this originally was just for somewhere to write down my thoughts, almost like a journal, but then I thought about how I can rarely find anything on-line11.00 that I can relate to and decided that although I will still use this page as I first wanted, I hope that if others find this and read it, it will somehow help them. Even if you are reading this as research, to understand someone close to you or even just for yourself so you can know that what you are feeling, you are not alone.

I am unsure on how often I will have a chance to update this but I will try my best.

I shall stay cautiously optimistic I think.

Until next time,


Obviously, because of my disability, I need assistance. But I have always tried to overcome the limitations of my condition and lead as full a life as possible. I have travelled the world, from the Antarctic to zero gravity.” – Stephen Hawking